Hi!
It’s me, Lisa Middlesex, creator of coercions, diversions and perversions!Hi!
It’s me, Lisa Middlesex, creator of coercions, diversions and perversions!
There
is so much to tell. One of the questions most asked of me is “Where do you get
your ideas?” The absolute truth is that nearly all of my writing and art comes
from personal experience. I merely sit down and begin to write down verbatim
what happened on a particular night or day, then I conjure up the most memorable
image of that situation and transfer it to paper, only shifting the point of
view from the victim to one of a spectator.
Born
and living in the Midwest, my erotic consciousness began to develop at a very
early age. There were no boys in my neighborhood to have as playmates so I
turned to the girls for companionship. I was only 5 or 6, yet I sensed that
there was a feeling of sensuality that I knew other boys would probably never
experience. I simply fit in doing the girly things my girlfriends did. It was so
totally natural to me that we all felt there was nothing wrong with me, a young
boy, picking up and developing feminine interests and desires. Not sexual
desires, just the feeling of wanting to be pretty and feminine.
Television
and comic books also had enormous importance in influencing my eventual sexual
opinions and preferences. In all my so-called masculine oriented comics, nearly
every issue had a number of beautifully drawn damsels in distress; tied hand and
foot with a luscious gag placed over their full shiny lips. Bondage in comics
back then was a STANDARD item and very early on I became used to the idea of
bondage as a perfectly “normal” part of life. I mean, if Lois Lane thought
nothing of being bound and gagged every month, then why should I?
(I’m
convinced that all the comic book artists of that era were all closet slaves and
masters extremely aware of the B&D scene and slyly drew all of their own
fantasies into the latest issue of Batman or Detective comics).
The
influence that television had on my young sexual psyche is infinite. Adventure
shows with gorgeous girls tied up as spies from Russia, dancing girls kidnapped
and held hostage tied up in old warehouses, cowboy and Indian shows with the
hero’s girl captured by Indians and tied to the stake. Bondage seemed to be in
every show on TV! And even cartoons weren’t exempt.
As
I became older, I still found that girls were confidants to me, and I continued
to stay in their good graces. Even so, the girls were starting to realize I was
very different from the rest of the boys. Every day I would try to interest them
in playing different games, or try and convince them to let me wear their
dresses. About this time the BIG turning point in my life occurred.
One
day while visiting my grandmother, I became bored with playing with the toys I
had with me, and noticing this, she asked me to follow her into her bedroom.
Once inside she proceeded to dress me in some of her underwear, stockings, slip
and make-up. All she thought she was doing was keeping me amused. She had no
idea that she’d given me the answer to my dreams!
Once
started, I continued to dress up, although when I returned home, my mother began
to notice that her clothes were being worn by more than one person.
She
confronted me gently but firmly and said, “If you don’t want people to think
of you as sick, never dress up like a girl again. It’s wrong.” The seed of
guilt was planted.
At
this time I began to notice newspaper columns like Dear Abby, who would print
letters that she would receive from concerned mothers or wives writing about
their sons or husbands who enjoyed dressing in their clothing. “Dear Abby”
labeled them transvestites. And I knew there were others like me somewhere.
I
began to look into the concept of crossdressing on the sly, reading books in the
public library and learning more about my affliction.
I
discovered the terms “drag queen”, which sounded so exotic to my teenage
mind! And “transsexual”. I was intrigued and had to learn more. The one
thing that kept popping up in the literature was the fact that transvestites
were on the whole, mostly heterosexual.
Relieved!
I wasn’t a “queer” after all…just a deviate! Although, after eventually
discovering that I was and am in fact very much bisexual, I accepted the idea
very eagerly once I realized the endless sexual experimentation available. From
a well-known quote, “Being bi-sexual makes it twice as easy to get a date for
Saturday night!”
Beginning
in my late teens, the biggest day of the year was and is Halloween! Every year
without fail, I would come out and trick or treat, dressed to the teeth…and
loving the idea that for one night, I could be totally guilt free!
Later,
I was finally able to get into something I had been waiting for, for a long
time. The opportunity to go to the bars featuring female impersonators! Living
near Detroit, I was able to find the clubs that featured drag shows on a regular
basis. And so I would venture out to the bars as Lisa Angel. I found that it was
all that I’d hoped for and more!
Finally,
the chance to look and act the way I’d always dreamed. Either performing or
just in the audience, I finally felt that I was getting the chance to let my
other half out and enjoy everything that was now open to a young attractive drag
queen.
At
the age of about 20, I found that I had an artistic side as well, and also found
that I could bring my fantasies to life on paper with just a few brush strokes.
I pursued this idea with a great deal of interest, and as I gradually became a
serious collector of hard and soft core items such as magazines, films and
books, I became familiar with the well known bondage artists from the past to
the present, such as John Willie, Eric Stanton, The Bishop and all the rest.
I’m aware of the legacy of artwork that has so far been produced in the velvet
underground that most of us exist in and my hope is that I too, will be
mentioned in the same breath as the past masters…someday, I hope.
Very
little of my work has been fictional. The scenarios I create are often
situations I’m planning on actually acting out in the near future, using the
drawing to illustrate to my future soulmate just how I want to be treated when
the times comes.
As
I’m currently involved in my artistic pursuits of writing and drawing, I also
am an accomplished singer – song-writer – guitar player currently recording
my material for record company demo tapes – plus working in a well-known five
star restaurant – it’s safe to say I’m very busy and also very single.
I
realize that it’s going to take someone very, very special to catch my eye. I
sometimes tell myself that I may never find my soulmate out here in the
Midwest…that I’ll need to move to Los Angeles or New York or Europe to find
that certain someone who is beautiful, intelligent, kinky and can blow my mind
on a sexual level, creating outrageous bondage scenarios even I haven’t
thought of yet…(is it possible, I hope, I hope!!), but then I think, “Hey!
If I’m out here in the Midwest maybe she is too! Lover, are you listening?”
I
guess that what I’m saying to all those out there asking “What is Lisa
Middlesex really like?” is this…I think you can tell that what I draw is a
labor of love. I don’t do it to get paid. I don’t have deadlines. I do it
because I like to do it. I have to do it. I taught myself how to draw precisely
so I could render these thoughts of mine onto paper and make them solid, real,
to excite myself with the images, and to my surprise and delight many others
seem to be aroused and excited by them as well. If it doesn’t move me I
can’t draw it. It’s got to excite me, otherwise it becomes a job, like any
other…and I lose interest. That’s why my material seems a bit out of the
main stream of B&D or S&M. It’s my personal take on what turns me on.
It’s not for everybody, but far more people enjoy it than I ever thought or
dreamed possible…and to them…to you, I’m grateful.
All
my love,
Lisa Middlesex
I’ve always found Lisa to be a very unusual and intelligent person. I have published her works in 1981, 1982, 1983, 1985, 1990, 1991, 1992 and 1998!! And I never know what she is going to be up to next…
She
always seems to create artwork with content that I’ve never seen before. I’m
thinking, “where did she come up with that one?” That’s why it’s always
a thrill receiving a package of artworks from her. It’s like a mental treasure
chest.
Lisa’s
not on the “Net” yet, so if you would like to contact her, send me an email
addressed to her and I will mail a hard copy to Lisa.